Pregnancy Reflections:

This pregnancy has helped me to see the whole of myself- both my shadows and my light.

My Shadows:

To be transparent, many challenges have surfaced for me during this pregnancy. I believe our external world mirrors our internal world—our thoughts and emotions—so I recognize that these challenges I’m facing are, in part, of my own creation. The ways I’ve either created or responded to these experiences has revealed several maladaptive behaviors, thought patterns, and limiting beliefs.

These circumstances have shifted my focus toward the spiritual and mindset components of health and wellness. While I’ve maintained an overall healthy diet and continued to exercise, neither has been at the same level as before pregnancy. I also haven’t spent much time designing the perfect nursery—especially since the baby will stay in our room for the first three to four months until our move to Puerto Rico.

Instead, I’ve been devoting most of my energy to identifying the patterns I do not wish to carry with me into the next phase of life when my daughter arrives. This has proven to be quite the challenge, because a lot has come up for me. It feels as though this little girl has stirred up quite a bit of internal chaos—whether through hormonal changes or circumstances I’ve been called to address in preparation for her arrival.

I truly believe God has sent me this angel to shine light on what is no longer serving me. I feel like she knows what I’m capable of and is helping me grow into my highest potential. She is my greatest motivation to release these patterns before she enters the world. I recognize that my energy, emotions, thoughts, and behaviors will have a profound impact on my daughter, and therefore I’m determined to create the most positive energetic environment to raise her in.

Through these challenges, I’ve come to understand much more about the power and purpose of meditation and prayer. They’ve become a daily staple in my life- sacred moments to connect with my soul and the Divine. These practices help me step away from the fears in my mind and the negative emotions in my body. I’m reminded that our souls are eternal, and we are always divinely guided and protected. This reminder helps me trust in my life’s unfolding and surrender the need for control.  

My light:

This pregnancy has also brought infinite light and love. Since childhood, I’ve felt a very strong calling to be a mother. My greatest desire has always been to have a happy, healthy, and loving family of my own- something I’ve prayed for and dreamt of for as long as I can remember. This desire has guided my decision-making and shaped my life path. So, every time I feel one of my baby’s little kicks, I’m reminded that my greatest dream has come true. I thank God every day for blessing me with this miracle.

This journey has also shown me how much joy a baby brings- even to strangers and acquaintances. My daughter hasn’t even arrived, yet her presence alone already fills others with pure happiness. This has been one of the most beautiful experiences of my life so far: witnessing how much love babies instill through their purity and perfection. It’s a powerful reminder that what babies carry with them lives within all of us. By continually releasing what no longer serves us, we move closer to our true essence—pure light and love.